Somewhere In The Sun: Once in a lifetime ...

I had to put a keith title for one of these entries!!! Moving on ... I've finally been able to go a day without crying, I'm able to look at his picture and not swell up with tears, I think I'm finally moving on as best as I can. I think its been easier being away from it all, my mom's had the hardest parts - cleaning out the barn and all the memories that went with that. I know life goes on, Levi and Safin are such a distraction they really leave me no time to just sit in the dark and be sad. I'm looking forward to gathering all my pictures this weekend and starting a scrapbook.

Yesterday my mom found a horse on the Internet, a 3 year old palimino named Bahama Breeze. I think if its meant to be then its meant to be and maybe he'll become apart of our family. I know that no horse will ever replace Dusty, but I know how much my mom loves having a horse at our house and how quiet it must be now. It would be kind of cool to have a horse we could ride again, especially since Dusty was "retired" these past few years.

I still miss Dusty a lot, and sometimes I can't even believe he's really gone. Maybe it just hasn't hit me hard yet, and I hope the next time I go home and walk in the backyard it doesn't hit me like a freight train. I'm really trying to be at peace that he's in a better place and he's not in pain anymore, I would of never wanted him to suffer, but this whole week has sucked pretty badly. One more day till the weekend though, Levi has his last vet appointment Saturday and I'm curious to see how much he weighs now. I couldn't resist buying him this red lobster today at Target, he's been a really good puppy lately so I got him a treat. It's really cute and he pranced around the living room with it in his mouth.