Happy Birthday Grandma!
Happy Birthday Grandma ... November 18th. I did the math on my calculator and today she would of been 89 years old, one away from the big 9-0. There's not too many days that go bye that I don't think about her, almost thirteen years since we last had a laugh or a big hug. I get sad when I think about all she has missed in the past thirteen years, and how things might be different now if she would of beaten cancer, or what if she had gotten it now when so much more technology and medicine has developed. I know I look back and think about all the great things she was able to be apart of, especially watching and spoiling pat and I as we grew up. But then she's missed highschool graduations, one college graduation with one more to come in May, she's missed helping my mom through her battles the past few years, my wedding, and so much more. I guess I can't quite say she's "missed it", because I believe she's our angel and she hasn't missed a day of anything, I always feel her with me when I'm feeling sad or even when I'm happy, when I see a rainbow and during a warm day. I know she was there at my wedding and I swear I could see her sitting on the beach with a big straw hat and some tropical white pants, and probably a signature pink shit too, just smiling and enjoying the day. On my darkest sadest days and my happiest days I always feel her with me more, but everyday, even just normal days where I wake up and go to work with nothing exciting happening, she's around ... I know it and I believe it. She's looked after my mom during her surgeries and her constant battles. Somedays I've believe that she's my cat safin re-incarnated, and I'm sure if my grandma could chose to come back it would be as a cat. haha.. So today just like every other day I remember her, and I miss her and even after all this time I still love her and wonder why she had to leave our lifes so early. So I treasure the moments we had together and all the pictures in the albums that I can look at anytime I miss her. Happy Birthday grandma ... love you and miss you always :) 
Happy Birthday Grandma ... November 18th. I did the math on my calculator and today she would of been 89 years old, one away from the big 9-0. There's not too many days that go bye that I don't think about her, almost thirteen years since we last had a laugh or a big hug. I get sad when I think about all she has missed in the past thirteen years, and how things might be different now if she would of beaten cancer, or what if she had gotten it now when so much more technology and medicine has developed. I know I look back and think about all the great things she was able to be apart of, especially watching and spoiling pat and I as we grew up. But then she's missed highschool graduations, one college graduation with one more to come in May, she's missed helping my mom through her battles the past few years, my wedding, and so much more. I guess I can't quite say she's "missed it", because I believe she's our angel and she hasn't missed a day of anything, I always feel her with me when I'm feeling sad or even when I'm happy, when I see a rainbow and during a warm day. I know she was there at my wedding and I swear I could see her sitting on the beach with a big straw hat and some tropical white pants, and probably a signature pink shit too, just smiling and enjoying the day. On my darkest sadest days and my happiest days I always feel her with me more, but everyday, even just normal days where I wake up and go to work with nothing exciting happening, she's around ... I know it and I believe it. She's looked after my mom during her surgeries and her constant battles. Somedays I've believe that she's my cat safin re-incarnated, and I'm sure if my grandma could chose to come back it would be as a cat. haha.. So today just like every other day I remember her, and I miss her and even after all this time I still love her and wonder why she had to leave our lifes so early. So I treasure the moments we had together and all the pictures in the albums that I can look at anytime I miss her. Happy Birthday grandma ... love you and miss you always :) 
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